Di manakah baginda yang dikatakan kita cinta itu, di dalam kehidupan kita ini? - HA

The Weekends.

Assalamualaikum !

Ottoke ? We are freeeeeeeeeeee since Thursday untill the next Wednesday ! its about 7 Days free and i am HERE IIUM KUANTAN ! Not goingg homee at alll !!!! Aaaaaaaaaaa ! I am losing my sanity . HAHAHA -.-

Dah lah ada kenduri kawen Oda dan Kak Ang . ZzZz -__-" Tu lahh , Padan Muka dengan diri sendiri , sapa suruh tak plan and tengok awal2 . Gaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahahah .

Alasannya ? Sebab baruuuuu je seminggu away from Home dah balik umah balik dah . Tak mencabar la derr... Peram sikit kann rindu2 an tuu. Eceh . Tapi bila pikir balik , bagus jugak kot sebab nak habes kan puasa 6 sampai hari Ahad ni insyaAllahhh . Ya Allahh kuatkanlahh daku :')

Walaupun aku dijangka akan kebosanan tahap gaban ,  tapi rasanya pasti ada je sesuatu yang boleh dilakukan . Hua3 . Kalau aku balik pun , cemana nak gi kenduri kalau puasa ? Open house Rem pun aku tak gi . Wuwuwu. Taknak lahh dikatakan tak menghormati majlis :3 . Takpelahh Maslinn , jihad nafsuu laa sikit . Korban sesuatu yg lebih kecil tuk sesuatu yg lebih besar insyaAllahhhh :') .

So malam tadi , kite keluar makan2 dengan Old colleagues . Kitorang ni kenal masa kat Cfsiium dulu . Sebab roomates dan jiran2 bilik . hhehe . Fuzi da ada keretaaa beb ! Kuning2 gittewwww Awww ~ . It was great wehh ! :') . Seronok gilaa cakap hal2 masa lalu yang best2 . Memorii kott . Banyak sangatt :') . So there was Fuzi Aimi Syud Kirin and Ina :) .

Okey so whats next ? Hmmmmm. So yg tak balek is KA , Sarah , Kirin , Syuda , Ummu and Shai . Nampaknye dengan merekalah aku menghabiskan sisa2 masa aku sementara menunggu Isnin and Class.  hee.

1.Barang aku tak angkat lagi kat 7 . Ahad last due date.
2. Selase Ade GASS meeting , taktawlah aku terlibat ke tak 
3. Selase gak , nak setelkan cop semua bagai pasal 30n3 IPT , hua3
4. Khamis is GASS and at the same time Meeting first ECDC ! :O
5. Nampaknye lagi due minggu nak 3on3 , kene lahh training wehh ! Will try my best to turun court , even alone and practice ! Muahahhahaahha .

Kalau nak ikutkan , kalau aku tak puasa ni , memang aku 24 hours aaa ulang alik ke McD yang baru bukak tu pastu paksa Nasiaq belanja.Muahahahah :D . Namun nampaknye tak lah kan ? Kawalan nafsu sekarang . Jadi nya hiburan sementara nak habiskan 2 hari lagi ini adalah :

1. To The Beautiful You episode 9 , 10
2. Buku Ustaz Pahrol
3. Notes Genetics
4.TRAINING or Jogging at the evening .
5 .Libraryyyy  . ( amek aura HAHA )


Jadi nampak tak kat situ adaaaa je benda yang bole dilakukan ? Hihih. Kalau bosan sangattt , lepak lahhhhh ng sesapa sambil baca majalah . Huk alohhh , kalau bizi banyak laa songeh ngadu tak sempat nak baca itu lah inilahh. Ni Tuhan kasi anugerahh freee je ni , marilah kita gunakan dengan sebaiknye using what we have ye dok ?  :)


Oleh itu , telah sampai penamat kepada post ini . InsyaAllahhh , Masa itu emas dan sesungguhnya manusia didalam kerugian jika tidak tahu untuk menghargainya :)

Dearest Magentas :')

Hey

The Resolution .

Assalamualaikumm people ! 

Happy New Sem ! And for me its Sem 4 ! :D


Alhamdulillah after 3 months of holiday , Im still ALIVE ! Thankyou Ya Allahhh ! :')

Okey , so , what have i got / done / gave during my vacations ?  These are some of the highlights .


1. Of course lah  the 1st one is Basketball for Masum . Ive made The resolution already at this post . But Overall of it , GETTING OUT FROM YOU COMFORT IS NEVER EASY AND THATS NEED COURAGE + DETERMINATION . BE PREPARED.

2. Well , Since Alonk is married now , My responsbilities becomes bigger than before . I need to grow up FAST regardless im ready or not . See ? Another COMFORT ZONE story. Wuwuwu . Ala lagipun umur dah 21 , sampai bila nak jadi lagu tuuu ja ? Masak tahu ala gitu je ? Bila lagi nak tunjuk power sebagai anak kedua yang laen dari yang laen ni ? Bak kata ayah , Orang yang berguna adalah orang yang berbakti kepada orang lain . Tak payah jauh2, tu ha mak bapak sendiri depan mata hua3 . Aku pun rase , tak guna la semua ilmu dan pangkat yang ada kalau parents sendiri tak dapat nak gembirakan . Ahaaaa . :D. Mencabar gak ah , sebab dah biasa lepas kat kakak kan ? HAHAHA padan muka . Takpe2 , aku yakin kematangan setiap orang punya masa  dan cara yang berbeza . Yang penting kita tak menolak peluang untuk menjadi matang tu . Ececece.

3. So , i think i didnt performed my best in Ramadhan , which is SAD to me . I dont like to blame anyone but myself . Still , this one guy is always there and i have no idea why i still put up with his attitudes. Gaaahaha . I pray to Allah to give me strength in handling this Heart thinggy . Praying that i wont do anything that against my 'pledged' as a Muslimah .  Well , youknowwhatimean . If you feel like wanna cry in search of the strength , just CRY . Kawallah nafsu mu itu walaupun itu maknanya kau perlu Menangis . A guy who treasure you will always want the best for you and the best is Jannah . Im so greatful for whatever strength He gave to me during that time , Thankyou Allah :') . and actually , i need that more NOW .  Help me God :'(

4. Mak kata kan , kalau tak berubah sekarang , sampai bila2mana2 pun perangai tu kat situu je . Wuwuw . Takut wohh dengar , muahahahah. Jadi macam2 lahh rasenye kene imprivise diri ni . Dari segi Manners , thinking and attitude . Haihhh . The never ending Battles of oneself . @__@

5 . Sem ni takmo daa ponteng class . Kene lebih berdisiplin dan matang menguruskan masaaa . Im in a critical state dah . Ottokeeee. Wuwuwu . Ummi Ayahh Im sorryyy . But im promise i will fix this , insyAllahh Just wait and see .

New header

Hye people ! Check out my new header ! It was made by my lovelayhh friend -> Iman ! http://iamsakurafreaks.blogspot.com/ Do check out her blog yeah ?


So , how is it ? Macam matang sikit kan ? Muehehhe , Still a trial . One week , and i might change it back to N0-me header . Its too flashy dont you think ? :D Anyhoww , I love itt! Thankyouu miamorrrrr <3 p="p">

 Be strong my Iman sayang ! He was trying to give you a message , and its your job to find out what it is. InsyaAllah you will be fine :)

Tell me if this is normal .

Alhamdulillahhh , alonk is now the wife of Zaim Zainal Abidin ! Hye Abang longg ! Welcome to the family ! :)

Okey this is what happened . I was crying like hell even before the akad being read . Amagaaaaddd T_T , Alonk herself didnt cry yet . I knew this would happened to me . Well , like i told you at the previous post , the thought of Alonk's relationship with us as siblings wont be the same again what makes me cried :'( . aaaaaa i was being too clingy i guess , ottoke ? She is my sister ! ahaha .

Then the ceremony ended , And they are at home for 2 days .

So heres the thing : Is it normal to feel awkward having someone that u used to see them as stranger then , now they are living in the same house with youu @.@ . AWKWARDDDDD .


HAHAHAAHA , yang paling taleh blah , when alonk is in the house but i feel like its hard to reach her T_T . Ottoke ? Aigoooo . Apalahh aku ni .Ofcourseeee , mestilah she will be with her hubby alllthetimee. Omaigod i sounds so creepy ! :O .


So is this normal ? heheh . Maybe i need time to adapt to this .I guess .


These days i feel like crying but i couldnt  . I feel the need to talk to somebody . and suddenly , KA called . Ya Allahh :') , I felt so loved <3 br="br" nbsp="nbsp">

"Cry as much as you can when making du'aa, pour your heart out. 

When you'll get up, you'll feel as if your anxiety left you with the flowing tears.

A believer is stronger after making du'aa "

I think , now i can get back up again. For now i feel so hungrayhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh ! Ya Allahhhhh :/


p/s : Oda ng Fayadh gave a great news just now . They are getting married ! Alhamdulillahh :') . The first couple from our batch ! Weeeee . May Allah ease everything , ameeennnnn :)

Of Eid Mubarak .

Selamat Hari Raya to all !

Wahhh  it has been 4 days but i wished you guys just now! Fewhh , it is due to my busy-ness with alonk's wedding . Speaking of that , we just had this year's raya ala kadar and our family potret still not been taken yet ! -.- . And we were not balik kampung or going to visit other relatives JUST YET . I guess after the weding we are free to go RAyaaa!~ After all , they said , darah pengantin itu darah manis . Sooo , prevention is better than cure . You know what i mean :)

Le cuzzies. The only family photo for now -.-"

Okey , so , we have this Cleaning Day , where we have to kemas2 rumah ,. I mean THE WHOLE HOUSE . Big changes are bound to happen ! Our 24-years-old desk is being remove to make space for the room :( .And so many ! Wahh . I cant belive this moment is actually happen to me nowwwww ._. .

the things i found that once my childhood;s hobbies :')

Have i ever told you that , ever since i heard that alonk is gonna marry this year , it gives me all-shiver ? Hahaha , yeah yeah , macam aku yang nak kawen kan ? But what i meant is , because it just feels like im losing herrrrr . Somebody is taking her fromm usssss . Soo saaaddd T__T. Or maybe i feel this way because we are all like hanging and clinging to her , especially me . Because i am the second child , and next to her is me so ill feel the greatest burden when she's not here . And im honestly not ready yett T_T . Actually this kind of thinking that make me so hype up to cook and all before Ramadhan . Remember the time when i have Masum training n i still come back home to do the chores ? Yes , THIS is the reason. To prepare myself.  Ahaaa . Surprise much ? But after masum ended and during Ramadhan , i became the person i was before - all cluless and unreliable :'( . Waahahah , i dont know how to put this . Im just worried of how im going to face the future because if Alonk is here, she will put up with major responsbilities and shes the one whos gonna listen my craps if i had fight with mummy . Whos gonna calm me down after this ? Whos gonnaa give me thoughts on what to think and behave ? I know she still can do all those things i mention above , but now she has a new responsbility ! Kirenya my problem will be just as tiny as ants , and the range would be 1-4 . It should be 8 or higher bro (HIMYM) ,. Hahahahaha -.-". 

me and Alonk

So , i have this some kind of pressure right now . Even before the wedding ! Gosh ! Am i being too hard with myself ? Am i overthinking ? Zzzzz. One thing for sure , the Most pressurized me in the wholee universe is when they will compare me with Alonk in many terms , especially the cooking part ! Aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa !  I CANNOT LIVE LIKE THIS ! I HATE BEING COMPAREDDD ! WHY DONT YOU JUST LET ME DO MY OWN WAYYYY ?! AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA ! * Gasp*

Ottoke ? Sumpah gila emo aku . Sorryy ;_;

Orang mesti engat aku gila or Saiko or pathetic or ' eleh pahal kau dramatik sangat ni ?' Tapiii itulahh, you wont get me. You wont understand what i feel .n I dont expect you to do that . HAishhh  . Nahh , amekkaw.

Maknanya apa ? Emmmmmm . Stress pulak pikir apa nak jadi hahaha -.-. Aigooo. Tanggungjawab dalam rumah lebih besar la lepas ni . Kene more acknowledge everything thats going on . Kene rajenkan diri selalu. Takbole lek2 sangat , Aigooo. Well , who knows , maybeeee ,juuust maybe , this is the turning point for me to break my coccoon and evolve to be someone better right ? Okeylahh , i will try to see this from the Brightside . If it doesnt challenge me , it wont change me remember ? :)


After all , If Allah brings you to it , HE will bring you THROUGH it . So  keep calm and Chin up ! You can do it MAslinn ! Yeahhhh !! :D


Oh Btw , Dont get me wrong .Ofcourseee i am happy for you my sister ! *fireworks* . You are one step ahead in reaching Allah;s bless by Having relationship in Halal way ! Whats better than that ? Warghh  pengapit ni emo siakkk . Perlu ke perlu ke cis cis cis . Nasibbaik laaa tak ramai follower yang dikenali , Hihih. Kalau kenal tuu... Ehem ehem . Buat tak nampak baca je la yeee , hehehee . Okeyy , esok hari kamess . More preparations are yet to comeeee !

So-called deco

The Iftar with Selayang People :')

First :

With the Selayang People from my School , Sepintar .

Bell , Asilah , NISA ! :)

  Second :

With Selayang People from UIA

Khairul Amira Md Zain ! :)

 

Nampak benor ngeditnye . Sucinyee KA~~~ Awww Hihihi

Ohhh . Hye KA ! The only selayang people i know from my course ( eh theres TOIN ! Wait his Gombak) hehehe:D . So i brought her to Prima Sri Gombak , The Bamboo Thai restaurant. Glad she liked it :) . Hihih .So we updated bout each others' life , girls' talk as always as well as the heart thinggy . But this time it is more to our plan for future . Omaigosh she was like reading my mind ! Thats what ive been thinking these past few days ! Great mind think alike hey ? :) Wohhh . I shouldd be working on my 25 things before i turned out 25 years actually . Well you know , its like a plan. Yes , A real-serious life plan. We need to do something with our lives now . Getting out from the comfort zone and started to create our own destiny  Jyeahh ! The lists are coming up ! Behold my readers ! hehehhehhe . But one thing for sure , JOGGING wil be included in the list . Right , KA ? Now we need more determination than any other time , Yeahh ! Muahahhaha. Im so excited ! Im jumping right here and there heheheehhe hyeperbola -.-. I need to start type it before i lose it again - the enthusiasm . On your mark , Get set , GO !\O/

Kita hanya merancang , dan Allah juga merancang . 

Namun perancangan Allah lah sebaik2 nya .

 Tapi Kita juga harus berusaha dan berdoa :)

10 days .

Its just...

Returning the Favor .

Cikgu Mai asked our favor to be the Maths faci for the PMR student

And here we are

Subhanallah , what a great experience !

Cant believe i still remember after all these times :')

Alhamdulillahh

Hopefully  we did help them even a slightest bit !

Gooddluck PMR 12 Sepintar ! :)

UIA :)

bestfriend saya :)

 This is it..Its time to Menabur bakti after all the school had done for us . Thankyou Allah for this opprtunity ! :D

This hits me .

 When we run after this world - this dunya- be it people, respect or anything, we always come back broken, disappointed and crushed.
And we learn all over again that this world is nothing. It's just glitter. We learn it. Only to forget it again. 
We run after this world again and once again come back heartbroken. The cycle goes on.

The wise is the one who learns it the first time and does not repeat his mistake. He knows this world is a mirage; keep running after it and you'll never capture it. This world is just a passing enjoyment. It is a place of hunger, fear and tears. It gets cold here. So cold sometimes.
It is a place where you have to worry and feel scared. Where you have to lose your loved ones. Where you cannot get attached to anyone because even if you do, it'll hurt in the end. This is not a place of ease. Here exists hardships because they must. This is DUNYA my brothers and sisters.
So after all, is not Jannah *the* place? That place where you can really have all you could possibly ever desire? Where there exists happiness ever after, for real.
So this wise person realizes this reality. And so he finds rest and comfort not in running after this dunya but rather in the dhikr of Allah. This is where he finds solace. This is where he finds happiness. He wants ease and forever comfort and he knows it exists, he's just not foolish enough to look for it on the wrong side of death.

So let that fresh scar, be it physical or emotional, that you received from running after this dunya, remind you that you are weak and you need Allah. That you bleed and hurt and so you need to flee to Allah. That happiness just does not stay with you in this world and that you need the aakhirah.

Run after this world, you'll lose both this world and the aakhirah. Run after the hereafter, you'll get both. 

Choose now .

Mustangs Season 2.

It has been a week after MASUM now .

Subhanallah . It was my 2nd Masum but stil ,a great experience though. Gonna highlight what i learnt this year .

I learnt ;

1. There were some dramas happened , Since Kak Linda having their practical . Well i was being appointed as the Co- captain .But then , theres THE SUPERSENIOR. And ohmygosh she is REALLY giving me a very hardtime ! theres interest conflict now . Ahaa . While the coach always have something to do , which left me no choice to conduct the team . Instead SHE acted she had to . Its not i dont want to stand up what soever . But deep in my heart , i knew she had some issues with me since lastyear . And i dontknow what the hell is that . PAdahal aku tak kacau hidup kau pun ZzZzzZ . Now , with the absence of The captain, naek kepala!  Grrr.Yolahh amek lahh . Sebbaek dah nak grad tahun depan . Hihihi *gelak kecil*. Nevertheless , she challenged my leadership skill by doing that . Situasi paling mencabar kredibiliti akuu. This is seriously a real life situation . Gaaahaha . I never hold back what im gonna say regardless who you are back in Kuantan fyi . But this is different . I really cant be myself. I Cant express my feelings . and it shows in my performance on court . So new experience to me. THIS is one small thing that bugging me.

2.Then , of course , The COACH . As usual , we question his rationality of his method of training since we got only a month left . Perghhhh . Untill the moment of the match pun , the drama still there . Gaaaahaha.


3. For the 1st time in my life , i doubt my passion . I was questioning myslef why on earth i put up with all of these hurdles just to be able to participate in Masum ? Why is it so important for me to be a part of it . At this breaking point , i must say is the most crucial part in my life . I even reconsidering whether or not to come back next year . oh that would be another stories ,  But for this , alhamdulillah , i found my way .


4. I learnt that it is not easy to go out of your comfort zone . Well , the only reason you feel uncomfortable with your position now is , you know there are other people who is better than you , yet you have no courage to challenge yourself to be better . The courage , it is not easy i tell you . 


5. Since my schedule of training everyday would be Morning and Night only , i decided to get back home between the time so i can help my mom with the chores. For that , Aiman , my cousin is hired to pick and send me back to Uia . And this is when i get closer to him . We talked and discussed about recent issues . Since we are in a same age , i guess the not-so-long-journey-but-everyday is so worth it and great ! I got so many perspectives . and the way he thinks changed some of mine i supposed. Oh btw , he is just like My brother , he is among of the leader people can look up to in his community of UTM . You know how much i adore leaderssss right ? hehe. Thankyou for everything Man ! He is the one who listens all of these dramas and craps going , and guess what ? That actually helped and cleared my head a bit . Thankyouuu very muchhhh cuzzie ! You really owe me big time ! :')




Okey our results are as below :

-Grouping
Uia vs UTM - Win
Uia vs USM - Lose

-managed to go to Quarter Final
Uia vs Uitm - Lose [ with just 5 balls and it haunted me like forever ! Gaaaaaaahaha ! @.@ ]


Resolution :

1. With UTM , i was so blurry . I dont know why .  I wasnt frealed out or nervous or what soever. I just... yeah , ..blur . all of my attempts are subjected to failure , even the freethrows ! -.-. Wuwwuw. Alhamdulillahh , i scored the last point which make us the winner with onepoint difference . I know the coach  is proud having me in the team,l Mueheehehe :D

2. With USM. all of the players need to have this some kind of minsdset where : Whatever the coach asked us to do , IMPROVISE IT when needed . Because we are the one who is in the court , NOT HIM . So USE YOUR BRAIN . Perghhh , siap kena marah kot dengan Farha tgh2 court . Muehehheeh . My bad farha my baaaadddddd .

3. With Uitm . I heard from Conde before of the most tragic part of a lost is when it is hauntinggg you . All the passes , all the shoots that out , all the decisions you made ; would be playing in your mind . You would have like ' i should do this'  'Damn i could have done that !' ' Omg , i should have try harder to IN the ball! " - these kind of thoughts . I couldnt feel him at that time . But after this match with Uitm , everything he said came back to me . For dayssss i cant get it out of my head T_T . "IF ONLY I TRIED HARDER" " IF ONLY I STAYED LONGER" "IF ONLY" . Yeahhhh , i know we cant regret things , but hey , thats what happened and it just happened . Thinking that we are already in Quarter Final for the 1st time for  Mustangs Sister is my biggest motivation. like 'If we win against uitm , we are in SEMI FINALS - for the 1st time ever !' Which we didnt. In fact , if we managed to win, we will be meeting UPM , Goddes of basketball for females. Like coach said , maybe this is not our time yet . Even Uitm kene belasah dgn Upm , if it were us? I dont know , Lagi dasat kot kene belasah . Hehehhheeheh . Biasalah , sedapkan hati . Still , i agree with you coach . Maybe this is not our time yet , Just Maybe....

4. So , i guess the real resolution is . Less drama . More tactical . More friendly match and more more more Playing with the team  itself . Thats all .  Thats what we are all lacking. Experiences.  For some of us like K.Linda Eily and Kawthar , They know howwww to Improvise . The rest , nope. So thats why we need more playing time . It could trigger chemistry and create habitual reaction . i Just realized that the moment we are in the court for the match is soooo different . We have this fire in ourselves but , we feel restricted . We wanna do so many things , but we are limited by our skills .  So depressing . To me . Haha :D As basketball is a habitual sports , i guess , playing time need to be lengthen as to nurture the courage to get used to our new skills . Teeeheee . Mandai2 je aku ngulas . Haha .

5. Soooo , thats it Iium Mustangs . Thanks for everything . Thanks for the memories . I myself not sure if i would come back nextyear since im having my practical training. However , UIA is the next tuan rumah , would be a waste if im not joining righttt ? Gaaaahaha ! .

Now , if you guys could excuse me , i need to do my individual training . Need to strengthen my basics! Apparently , my basics is sooooooooo ........ hehehe , paham2 sendiri . Its okay , theres always next year !

Thanks for reading .
Assalamm :)

Welcome :")

Ramadhan Kareeeeeeeeeeeeeem ! :)

Uia vs Utm

Alhamdulillah , First time ever . We are going to the Quarter Finals baby ! :)

Its the Time .

Right now at 

Universiti Tun Hussein Onn Malaysia

UTHM , Batu Pahat , Johor 

for Masum.

Wish us all the best !

Go go Mustangs! :)

Give Your Heart a Break

The day I first met you
You told me you'd never fall in love
But now that I get you
I know fear is what it really was

Now here we are
So close yet so far
Haven't I passed the test
When will you realize
Baby, I'm not like the rest

Don't wanna break your heart
Wanna give your heart a break
I know you're scared it's wrong
Like you might make a mistake
There's just one life to live
And there's no time to wait, to waste
So let me give your heart a break, give your heart a break
Let me give your heart a break, your heart a break
Oh yeah, yeah

On Sunday you went home alone
There were tears in your eyes
I called your cell phone, my love
But you did not reply

The world is ours if we want it
We can take it if you just take my hand
There's no turning back now
Baby, try to understand

Don't wanna break your heart
Wanna give your heart a break
I know you're scared it's wrong
Like you might make a mistake
There's just one life to live
And there's no time to wait, to waste
So let me give your heart a break, give your heart a break
Let me give your heart a break, your heart a break

There's just so much you can take
Give your heart a break
Let me give your heart a break, your heart a break
Oh yeah, yeah

When your lips are on my lips
And our hearts beat as one
But you slip out of my fingertips
Every time you run, whoa-oh-whoa-oh-oh
Don't wanna break your heart
Wanna give your heart a break
I know you're scared it's wrong

Like you might make a mistake
There's just one life to live
And there's no time to wait, to waste
So let me give your heart a break
(Let me give your heart a break)

'Cause you've been hurt before
I can see it in your eyes
You try to smile it away, some things you can't disguise
Don't wanna break your heart
Maybe, I can ease the ache, the ache
So let me give your heart a break, give your heart a break
Let me give your heart a break, your heart a break

There's just so much you can take
Give your heart a break
Let me give your heart a break (your heart), your heart a break (a break)
Oh yeah, yeah

The day I first met you
You told me you'd never fall in love

In Between #6

Assalamualaikum .

This post is nothing but the continuation of my "down-ness" LAtely .

Eventually , we had our friendly match with the Integom. We won . BUT the play ? Sucks !

Gaahaha. I didnt perform well . Not as well as how coach wants . Emmm.

PAdan muka sapa suh tido dan makan nasi beberapa minit before Match ! ZzZzZ .

So its the night for him to  announce the players list .

I was like this close to feel so sure i didnt make it to the team until he called my name . THE LAST NAME.

Alhamdulillah . Astaghfirullahhhh .

1st . Like seriously coach ?! BEcause you said yourself YOU DONT WANNA PICK ME . So, whats this?

2nd. Thankyou coach . Emmm. Yeah , i should . You have this haaardd timeee of choosing .
3rd. I pity Zalik and Fit . A bit of shame also . BEcause i knowwwww that they are waaayy better than me. So it came back to the 1st one . Whyy mee COachhhh ? ! Emmmm.

WHY IM ACTING LIKE THIS ?! You would ask right ?

Because suddenly i doubt my passion . I question the reason of all thissssss . Why i wanna put up with all of these hard training that make me all sick /ache ? Why im sacrificing my holidays just for this ? Why oh why ? Too many Why;s.

As im doubting what i hold for , i thnik its better to give to someone that deserve more . Like Zalik and Fit .


But then again :

Im not quitting . Im just being realistic of what im capable of .


Ya Allahh tolonglahh dakuuu  .

Its Nisfu Syaaban . Selamat berpuasa sunat ! :)

In Between #5

Assalammm !

Okeyy , Sekarang macam nak down sikit . Ehem .

Pastu tetibe kan , Coach kita tag kita kat gambar ni :

Subhanallaahh . ! Hahahah terkejutt i . Wuwuwuwwuuww . Thanks laaa coach nak bagi penaek semangat kami . Hohohohohohohohoh. 

Btw , nak cite ape tah snanye ni , tp tetbe mood da hilang , jadi saya undur diri dluuuuuuuuuuu , Muahaa h, Bye bye :D