23 August 2012

Of Eid Mubarak .

Selamat Hari Raya to all !

Wahhh  it has been 4 days but i wished you guys just now! Fewhh , it is due to my busy-ness with alonk's wedding . Speaking of that , we just had this year's raya ala kadar and our family potret still not been taken yet ! -.- . And we were not balik kampung or going to visit other relatives JUST YET . I guess after the weding we are free to go RAyaaa!~ After all , they said , darah pengantin itu darah manis . Sooo , prevention is better than cure . You know what i mean :)

Le cuzzies. The only family photo for now -.-"

Okey , so , we have this Cleaning Day , where we have to kemas2 rumah ,. I mean THE WHOLE HOUSE . Big changes are bound to happen ! Our 24-years-old desk is being remove to make space for the room :( .And so many ! Wahh . I cant belive this moment is actually happen to me nowwwww ._. .

the things i found that once my childhood;s hobbies :')

Have i ever told you that , ever since i heard that alonk is gonna marry this year , it gives me all-shiver ? Hahaha , yeah yeah , macam aku yang nak kawen kan ? But what i meant is , because it just feels like im losing herrrrr . Somebody is taking her fromm usssss . Soo saaaddd T__T. Or maybe i feel this way because we are all like hanging and clinging to her , especially me . Because i am the second child , and next to her is me so ill feel the greatest burden when she's not here . And im honestly not ready yett T_T . Actually this kind of thinking that make me so hype up to cook and all before Ramadhan . Remember the time when i have Masum training n i still come back home to do the chores ? Yes , THIS is the reason. To prepare myself.  Ahaaa . Surprise much ? But after masum ended and during Ramadhan , i became the person i was before - all cluless and unreliable :'( . Waahahah , i dont know how to put this . Im just worried of how im going to face the future because if Alonk is here, she will put up with major responsbilities and shes the one whos gonna listen my craps if i had fight with mummy . Whos gonna calm me down after this ? Whos gonnaa give me thoughts on what to think and behave ? I know she still can do all those things i mention above , but now she has a new responsbility ! Kirenya my problem will be just as tiny as ants , and the range would be 1-4 . It should be 8 or higher bro (HIMYM) ,. Hahahahaha -.-". 

me and Alonk

So , i have this some kind of pressure right now . Even before the wedding ! Gosh ! Am i being too hard with myself ? Am i overthinking ? Zzzzz. One thing for sure , the Most pressurized me in the wholee universe is when they will compare me with Alonk in many terms , especially the cooking part ! Aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa !  I CANNOT LIVE LIKE THIS ! I HATE BEING COMPAREDDD ! WHY DONT YOU JUST LET ME DO MY OWN WAYYYY ?! AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA ! * Gasp*

Ottoke ? Sumpah gila emo aku . Sorryy ;_;

Orang mesti engat aku gila or Saiko or pathetic or ' eleh pahal kau dramatik sangat ni ?' Tapiii itulahh, you wont get me. You wont understand what i feel .n I dont expect you to do that . HAishhh  . Nahh , amekkaw.

Maknanya apa ? Emmmmmm . Stress pulak pikir apa nak jadi hahaha -.-. Aigooo. Tanggungjawab dalam rumah lebih besar la lepas ni . Kene more acknowledge everything thats going on . Kene rajenkan diri selalu. Takbole lek2 sangat , Aigooo. Well , who knows , maybeeee ,juuust maybe , this is the turning point for me to break my coccoon and evolve to be someone better right ? Okeylahh , i will try to see this from the Brightside . If it doesnt challenge me , it wont change me remember ? :)

After all , If Allah brings you to it , HE will bring you THROUGH it . So  keep calm and Chin up ! You can do it MAslinn ! Yeahhhh !! :D

Oh Btw , Dont get me wrong .Ofcourseee i am happy for you my sister ! *fireworks* . You are one step ahead in reaching Allah;s bless by Having relationship in Halal way ! Whats better than that ? Warghh  pengapit ni emo siakkk . Perlu ke perlu ke cis cis cis . Nasibbaik laaa tak ramai follower yang dikenali , Hihih. Kalau kenal tuu... Ehem ehem . Buat tak nampak baca je la yeee , hehehee . Okeyy , esok hari kamess . More preparations are yet to comeeee !

So-called deco

1 comment:

yana said...

oi2. haha. ak rajin mengomen ni. i get compared too tp igt x de other day we whasapped? cm family ak extremely competitive abt academic terms, mana belajar. cm ak blajar kt klntn je always get sidetracked by adk2 ak yg blaja UK, US.. mmg sakit kena compare.. but there's this post i read somewhere.. yg Allah selalu sygkn kita. n yes human makes mistakes all the time. even our mums. n dads. depa x perfect.and as much as i dont want to say this but, they are our parents. hidup kita is like, sbhgn besar ats ihsan mereka jugak. i may not know ur mum too well tp like ur sister lps dy kawen, her life ats ihsan suaminye pulak. so, whatever her lifespan before marriage is devoted to her parents. menangkan ibu bapa walau sakit mana pun. sebab Allah suruh, dan kita sygkn Allah kan? :)