09 November 2011

Just a week .

Assalam ,

Just a week , and thats all i ever need ; maybe . teehee .

But , i have to admit . Im not emotionally stable right now . So , im not in the mood to reveal myself in public . Instead i would rather stay inside . Be an introvert .Just going out when its necessary . With crowd of people. Yeah  soo-doesnt-sound-like Maslin isnt it ? . You need to know . Everyone have this side within themselves .

"Be careful who you open up to. Only a few people actually care, the rest are just curious"

I rather not say anything about what happened. But it actually  affected me . Emotionally . This is the time where My mind have to battle with  my emotion - the innate enemy . Why ? Because if i dont fight it , Im doom . Im having 2 more exams nextweek , plus presentation that gonna brings lotsa marks . and IM DEPENDING ON ITTTT. Id screwed up in my exams  , so ineed this to gain back my energyyyy *ngarotapakauu*haha. This is my chance anyhow . Pfffft .

Okey . Well . My simptoms are , I CANT READ THAT DAYMM MICROBE BOOOOOOk @.@". SUSA GILAAAA utk aku bertahan . Satu jam adalah pencapaian . Series . Lebih sikit dari itu , aku ngantuk . HAHAHA . =.=" Aku tak pernah alami situasi ini . Series . Paling teruk , aku akan tido sepanjang hari . Tapi pastu bukak buku , semangat macam lori . Mesti . Blerghh.

The person i would like to apologize is my sister Alonk . She has to put up with my annoying attitude since birth. Im totally a jerk. Iknow. Thing is . She did think like that because she was expecting something else from me . Ahh cut the crap Maslin , you need to be low-lahhh -,-. #selftalking. Haha , Yeah , back to the point . I dontknow why . But yeah , im a jerk. Enough said . Sorry Alonk . Dont expect too much from me , *iknowYOUWILLreadthis. 

She might think im the most loser sister she ever had . Believe me , i myself think like that . *Gile . Just maybe because im a little different . I dont go along with harshness. and there are things i thought are simple , should be done in simple way . I dont work at best with yelling -my defintion of harshness.. Especially when i already KNOWWW it . One thing you should know alonk , i have my own version to carry out my responsbility. And yeah , iknow u didnst see that . However , believe it or not , i am trying to understand your role as the first daughter . Our caretaker after mom and dad . Yes , indeed . I am giving my coorperation . You have to see that . 

Okey . I watched a movie . He said " U really  think u need to act tough in your own home ?" . That struck me .Deeply . It means that , home is where your another side that you hide from other people-ur fren, colleagues , strangers- being shown , revealed , Your true self . Then imma jerk ? Oh whatsoever . I just wanna say that , it might be a badside of mine , that rarely people seen it . and you people of my family have the honor to be able to see it . Hahah a. Aku cakap belit2 -,-. No , i mean , me myself at home is me . The temper me , the talkback me . The know-everything me . Its not that im two-faces. It was something i would call , "The other me" .

So , people , if you are the one who encounter that "other me ". Be surprise not . Rather think you might mean something to me . Eventhough i might have the risk that people will "omg she's like this senanyeee ". Ahh , screw them. Thats the only way to know who can accept my "hot and cold " mood . Who's the real people in my life . Well , No one is perfect , aite ? ;)


yana said...

sangat2 setuju! ahh ive been trying to describe this feeling jugak tapi tak tertulis! nicely said sister! :)

max*bubble said...

Hehe , thanx :)

kak yana pon ank second eh ? ;)