24 September 2009

e for exam. R FOR RAYE!

hoho..
berlalu sudah periksa bi
(ng nada lagu raya)
lalalalala~
hohoh...
pkse hbes kul 12
stat kul 9
pas bes tu g library jap
pulang n renew buk.
pastu
lepak jap bc paper..
bc laaa sgt..
haha
tah pape tah paper u mrepek ckp psl samivellu laa
cheating on cybersapce laa
(waa.xcye aku engat pe aku bc,,haha)
pstu tgok ah tv yg dsediakn tu
taw je a wktu2 rye neyy..
cte kt tv mst besh2..
huhu
ag2 kt astro.
maaaaakkk!
nk balek umah laaa..
spesiically....
nk balek kg!!!
wuwuwuwu
nk raye lagiiiii
wuwuwuuw
aku un lilau2 dn ukc cafe
cm org waras..
haha
astu tepon nik nk g umah raje x..
long story short
ktowg g
ng di dreberkan oleh ACAP MAEL!
YEY!!
slamat aku malas nk naek public..
heee~
wait,
MOHD ASYRAF B ISMAIL???
wa!
ke mana kamu mghilamg??
lama suda xdr citeee....
dye kt unimep ,perlis skrg.
kos mekaelaktronik
uia rep :pdot dame n kami:)
acap da siap bwk akmal.
o0o0
naek perdana weyhh
frst tym!
batak!
ahahaa

g umah raje on daway!!!
ku harapkan dame jd pnnjuk arah
arah ke laut le ktee..
hohoh
trpkse tggu raje amek ktorg
mmule tggu kt jusco
pnye lme tggu smapi big apple siap..(thnx dame^^)
aleh2 kne tggu kt tesco lk
smapai bjggut,,br la nmpk jggut si raje neyhh..
heeeee..
alkisahnye..
kami smpai laaa jug yee.
heee
sebbek aku d siap smyg wehh
hehe.
smpai kul 3.30
terkulat2 dyorg b nk smyg ahaha

mkn2 lepak2 borak2
da kul 5
rse cm nk blek
raje lak kate tgu muzakkir
lame gle tggu upenye xjd lakk
aiyo0o0o
5.30 br grak balekk
huuuu
ng sesatnye ag..
dame r
grrrr
hehe.
smapai nk dkt kul 7..
wowow
smayg cpt aku kt blik nik nasreen aisya//
haaa

lepaakk smapai skrg ney!
heee
alaaa
tape.
fim ari ahad lorh...
cceeeeehhh!
bnik cm hebat gilak pdhal midsem dpt half jel :p
ekekke
yela2
nk g blaja r nehh..
keyhh
daaa~
^-^




23 September 2009

stranger

i' supossed to write this post in a dialogue form,
but i'm in the shortage of tym
so lemme be straight je la
heee

cube bygkan.....
suddenly ade org msg korg ....
kalo yg msg tu mmbe ke,pkcek sdare ke,,atw mkcik kantin ke ,,leh tahan ag
ney,,,da la tah sesape...
pastu nk knl2 lak..
i know u guys already heard bout da same type of stories
n of course its lame
flow cte dye sme jek..
"aku-knl-ko-dr-kwn-aku-so-nk=knl=leh?" or "sy-suke-muke-awk-so-cn-we-meet?"
amboi2,,ko ingt aku sape nk sng2 je nk dikenali,,
tawla aku comel
ccehhh..
in my case,i already got 2!
gosh,,muke aku neyh muke capap sgt ke smpai tah sape2 maw masuk line??
i wonder laaaa..huhu
here's my version:

(tym part "aku" je monolog dlmn;sbb xsmpai ati nk ckp so ckp dlm ati je ah:p)

#1
guy: aku nk knl n kwn ng ko.aku jmpe ko 3 thun lpas,xkn ko xingt??

aku>>palehotak gle aku nk engt ko wtpe,,da la 3 thun....pehh...ko sape do

guy:aku dtg ng mmbe kakak ko la,,ko xengt ke ko ckp pe kt aku?

aku>>ha?? mmbe ? ahh,..asl lak nk engt ko,,mmbe akk aku tu tape la,,dye ensem doo..hee.da la ko lgsung xwjud lgsg dlm kotak ingtn aku to tak?

guy: (DIS IS DA BIGGEST PART) alaa,,,tp leh la kalo kte kawan jee...it wont hurt,aku minat gle 2 kat ko,siyes neyhh,.tolong la...

aku>>......mamt neh aku kang,,,grrr,,(**!&!^^@%)---sory,,juz to0 censored.^^


#2
boy: blaja ktne?
aku>> ??pehal ttbe nk tnye aku blaja ktne pdhal xknl ko
boy: ohh,,aku knl ko dr kwn skola ko,dye men rgbi,aku nmpk ko kt majalah ****, hmm,leh la knl ehh
aku>>emm..xnk ah..
boy:pless...sy ikhlas ng awk,,,bg la sy pluang ,,,sy x maen2 neyhh,...
(i juz cnt cntinue writing wt his said ciz by da tym i finished,i maybe puke)


************************

keyh,enuff of mine..

so,
what we can see here is..
the way,and the word are all da sme..
i'm juzst wondering..
can u simply sayang dat one person..
with only looking at da pics and hearing some stories from sum1-who-knws-who dat kind of way?
can u?
i mean,,,u dont even know who da person is and your feeling towards him/her has already overwhelmed you.
wtf!
cm xlogik gle!
we r not talking bout smthng dat cn be easily gain n then can be thrown out juz like that guys.
we r not taling bout thrash.
we r talking bout something dat is so pure dat no any ppl cn get to handle it properly
we r talking bout feelings.
of cours when i'm talking like this,i was referring to a feeling where u should channel it to someone who is legal to u,who deserves u---ur zaujah@ hbby/wife.
i may not da ryt person to say dis,,but,,yeah,,dats wt i felt.
i know sumtyms it cant be avoided,,
actually,u can control laa
jgn tpula...
suke xsmstinye kne approach
suke xsmstinye kne kawan
suke xsmstinye kne sdar kn org tu yg kte wjud,,
hoho...


k back to the track,


da #1 guy is a mere experience that make da #2 boy is easier to handle
like the saying: experience is da best teacher in da world.
admit it!
heee

snanye ,,
aku nk curse2 mamat2 2 ekor tu dlm blog neyh..
tp ttbe xjd lak..
hehe..
xpe la,,,
bulan baek ,kene ah mulot baek..
br ati baek,,result final pon baekk,,^^
heeee
heyy,,
jgn xtw..
u might like me more when i'm cursing^-^


ohh lupe lakk..
both i reject...
sbb first, due2 da menggelikan aku dr awl..
and second,do u think that both of them goin to just let the relationship in 'fren only" status?
haha.lol.
they will never stop trying guys,they NEVER WILL.
they say "frens only"..but their heart says:"xpe2,,nextym leh cube ag"
phewhh,,thinking of dat had already freaking me out...
i've had it enuff to be in suffocated situation,
when u want to breathe but u cant.
when u felt that u r in da middle of chaos n just cn get out of there (tersepit)
so.....b4 anythng worse happen,,,
i told them: just backoff!
haha,how co0l is dat:)

22 September 2009

haha

haha..
raye da...
dak uia akn katte..
"nk final daa!!!!"
wuwu..
aku lak blaja memaen..
adeihhh..
hoho..
taw ah core course satu je ouh..
hoho.
sedeyh lak ramadan da hbes,
trweh bkn pnoh pon;p
hee...
emm.
btw,
mun nk g rusia sok
arep g mesir pas 2okt so dye xamek exam nk join btn
wuwuw
asl sume org nk mengglkn aku nehh.
(ahaaha,pasan!)
aku lak sdg membencanekan dri sndiri dgn xblaja dan asek on9 je
wuwuwu
keyh ar
slamat ari rye sume!!
heeee
sile maen mercun byk2 sbb nnt da bsar da xleh men..
mcm sy:D
huuu..


14 September 2009

"i'm fine"---define!

"arini rmai kwn angah fly g mesir la umi"
"owh"
"nisa, amar, sume yg laen fly,cpt tul,hoho"
"rmai ke dak laki,,dgr cm byk pompuan je"
"ade je rmai,kite xpnh mention un,2 yg rse cket"
"jnab fly ble?"
"owh,lame ag dye"
"g ne eh dye?"
"australia"


and the conversation goes well til she said,

"ko xrase pape ke?"

pehh,,ney yg aku malas nk cte pasl dyorg
at that time i was like...
hvn't i make it clear to u?
that i'm fine.
haven't i?
that
i'm not in the depressing...or self-destruction mode anymore!
it is waaaay to0 lame to talk bout this now
i'm fine
then i said,

"mom,i already move don,it is not like i'm dead if i cant go oc"
"emm,thats the spirit!"

then i tot she's done with that
when somehow,she don't.

"ther's always a reason why u cant fly dear..i.."
"mom,can u stop it? im sick of it!
i m sick of people who thinks i cant heal by myself
and who thinks i will always in self-depressed.
i'm sick of people telling me which way is better
i know mom
i already knew it
no need to tell me twice.
i'm ok, O K?"

at that moment,
i can feel she dont believe me.

"is it so hard to hv faith in me that i will never stirred up by those who lucky enuf to fly ,mum?"
i was heated up.
i was hoping for a denial.

"who will believe u when ur reaction is like that?"

now,it was my reaction were put into account?
is it not convincing enough just to say "i'm fine"?
hey,who says that?
who says 'what is what' or qualification of how u know someone who is just fine?
u cant people,u cant.
u cant assume all the response that seems had triggered angst
is a sign of "man,she-is-still-sick"
u cant bandwagon it
u cant judge
sometimes,the best way to do is
support them silently from behind
because what's the use of lo0king back?
lo0king forward is what we aim for.
plan for the future
use everything we have

wound can be heal.
it just needs time.



all in all,i do know my mom love me and just really2 want to makesure im ok.
thnx mom,dont do like i do,talk back,huhu,
outspoken is not what i used to be ,yet somehow,thats what i always do.;p
so long my friends who already on flight!
u are the nation's hope.
may everything goes well there
and may Allah bless u.
don't forget to collect all the precious experience there.
it is not all the time we can be foreigner,ain't it?


haha,
ana bikhairin jiddan:)
seriously
alhamdulillah
max

i shud listen to u bell

ya Allah
inilah dugaan Mu
i shud listen 2 u bell,
when u said
"stay away from ur **"
damn!
what on earth im still thinking bout IT?
fo0lish la weyh!
its irresstible ,i told u!
huh!
god,god,god!
hate this moment!
la'alla cpat2la aku mmbesar
graduate
kerje
pastu kawen
wawawa
wo0owo0o!
bkn gatal ah!
bukankah Rasulullah prnah bersabda:
lebeh kurang r bunyik dye...
"selepas seseorang wanita tu berkahwin,
maka selamatlah sebahagian dr agamanye"
huuu...
ryt now seriously i feel soo0 insecure.
hohoh.
ingat xpnt ke jd org mude?
mmg la gumbire,,,
tp....
emmmm...
there's so much things that we as youngsters need to think bout.
esp in this new area,
wher many things are left undone or damaged
that associated with our religion,
nation
politics
but at da same tym need to focus on our future
exhausted isnt it?
it is.
i feel grateful to have U, O Allah.
mukjizat kekasihMu menenangkan jiwa
Kau sentiasa ada utk menengar keluhan jiwaku
oleh itu Ya Allah
kali ini Kau tenangkanlah jiwaku
peringatkan semula janji2 Mu kpd org yg beriman
iringilah aku dalam perjuangan ini
dan kuatkan lah hatiku dlm menghadapi kelukaan ini
sesungguhnye Kau MAHA MENGETAHUI
dan mengetahui apa yg aku tdk ketahui ya Allah...!
ammin ya rabbalalamin.
:)
hee~


better:)
max