what's next?

i already passed my first challenge

now what?

this was the part where i fell apart,at times.

but this time i'm not going to make it happen again

i must rise!

yeah,maslin rise all you want!

don't fall into the same damn hole ever again.

yet,

how?

i must know the catch.

emm....

due to my observations,

at this particular time,

your enemy is yourself.

the battle,and all is within you.

to fight and win this,

you yourself have to be strong!

yeahh,,strong!!!

be positive.

prior your time.

it is not the time for you to sit and just layback anymore.

officially,that time is over.

read my lips,'ITS OVER'.

so,

now you know right.

no pain,no gain.

what you do ,it's what u get.

come on!

it is now or never.

but remember...

no matter how deep you fall,

never give up!

just,

can you do me a lil' favor?

i had had enough of falling.

so,can we get up and win the race ?

emm,wil ya?

sure,will do.

insyaAllah.

can't be myself?

i am confident but

i still had my moment

baby,thats just me.

i'm not a supermodel

i still eat mcdonalds

baby,thats just me

some says that i need to be afraid

of losing averything

because the way i am

i have to started where i made my name

cuz nothing else is real

in this lala land machine

who says i cant wear my converse

with my dresses

baby,tahts just me

who says i cnt be single

i have to go rather mingle

baby,thats just me!

tell me if u feel the way i feel

cuz nothing else is real

in this lala land machine~

.i dun wanna be like this.

suke ikot sedap hati

.muka dendam kesumat.

ko nmpak xmuke aku tu???

apakah first impression anda terhadap aku? rase2nye,,pe yg aku tgh pker?

idong kembang kempis semacam? tahan rebak? perot lapar smpai nk makn org???

ha....anda memang bijak ,tapi masih tdk btol,,hanya sipi2 je lg nk menyamai dgn sebab yg sebenar,

gambar ini diambil betul2 ketika perasaan itu sedang melanda...

perasaan ape??

jap ehh.....lihat ini:

ini sebuah rumah.rumah ahchong?tak2.ney umah aku.or to be spesifik,ni umah mak aku.terletak di puncak alam. bende sebuah nie la pencetus angin kuskus dan mke asam beramboi kt ats td tu.sebenarnye tiada la apa salahnye kpd aku.cume aku hangen btol LA ngINI! * PENYEWA UMAHPANAS TOL AKU NG ORG TAK BERTANGGUNGJAWAB!* shout out kt fb aku mmg ade kne ngene ng umah ney.keyh2,tuk meleraikan kekusutan,apakah yg telah dilakukan oleh penyewa,oh tak2,BEKAS penyewa umah ney ialah...dgn sebesar2 hati sebesar gunung fuji,dye pergi meninggalkan umah ini ng rumput yg xsrupe rumput...lantai parkey (xtaw nk eja cne) menjadi tempat keraian anai2...sawang dan habuk menggantikan hiasan reben... dan bil eletrik yang tak pendek terselit kemas di mailbox merah tu, disusuli kepanasan yang bertan2 jiwanya dr badan dan dlm hati. sian tol makbpak aku,,,ney da kes kedue dpat penyewa bebal. aku rse cm nk saman je ,kalo bole la. siap usulkn cdgn kt bpk aku suh tulis dlm surat perjanjian. tapi,,manusiakan... bukan semua pegang pada janji ,walaupun itulah yang mengukur nilai hati budi seseorg manusia.hayy,,pe laa susa sgt nk jg umah tu,,mushkil tul la aku... emm...sabbbaaarrr je la....bak kate ckgu siti.sebbaek aku cuti,kalo x? parents ku yg terchenta pasti sgt terbeban.(aku ada mstila tolong,,aiyakkk)haha

.kudrat yang tak terkire.wuwu.

.adek aku bajet ayu.tp xpe,aslkn dye tolong:p.

.sampai saat terakher aku xpuas ati ng penyewa tu.

oleh itu,rakan2 teman taulan,,kalo da tbe mse nk dukumah sewa,,tolongla byk2 jaga umah tu baek2 even xduk sht kt stu, ingatlah,jika kita senangkan keje org laen, tuhan akn bg kte sng berpuluhkaliganda.

(btol wehhh...memg kalo aku dpt penyewa tu,,,hoho cm nk cucuh mercun kt bdn dye,pdn muke!bahaha!)-maseh xpueh ati!

bengang,

akim,

xpasal,

max.

no one

yes,no one.

******
yesterday,
i got an offer to the unikl,
mum said that mara wanted to support me to the oversea
so mum said,friday i must get out from uia to go there
i was like,,,
wow, what a go0d opportunity....
but then,
i have a second thought.........
is that all i want?
to go to the overseas?
because after all the times that i had been through in here,in this very uia,
i just dont feel like overseas is not necessarily
it is not everything,,,
yeah ,finally i said that
your life is not all about going to oversea
it is not like the ending of the world if u r not the one
yeah i know bout people's perception to those who lucky enuff to have that luck
but then again...
who cares?..
when all that matters is u ,urself?
people just can keep talking ,chanting,,blablabla..all what they want,,
still,,at the end of the day,
u r the one who is going to live with ur own life.
ehmm....
so i say..
"mum,i dont want"
mum was so0o0 awestruck.
i noe,gold opportunity.
though,
for my point of view
I AM LUCKY TO BE IN HERE WHERE I AM.
what do u think my mum will say?
course,,,my rejection.
ACCES DENIED!
MUM!
I DONT WANT TO GO THERE!
I'M JUST GLAD WHERE I AM NOW!

***********************************

then,its morning,
i woke up.
trying to figured out,,
what the hell i dreamt last night
then i got to know.
i already accept my faith now.
yeah, i have.
once,im so sad to know that most of my friends got to fly.
sad me,
i am,
coz im one of da straight a's,
n oc is all that i wanted since i was f1,
all that i dreamt for all my life
so,
why wouldn't i?
i was questioning myself the same.
it was just like few stab been made to my heart,

and as if i'm slurping a coffee filled with nails,going down my throat

- painful,irritating and suffocating.

everytime i heard about them
....................
then,
when i got to think back what i have here,
what that will i get here
n things that merely i will not get in any other place
then i know the reason i'm here
yeh,there's always a reason.
deep down in my heart
i know
GOD have a plan arranged for me.
yeah,GOD ALWAYS HAVE A PLAN.
so,,i just need to make use everything right in front of my eyes right?
i have to appreciate what he had done to me.
moreover,there's no different here or there,
it's always bout me.
it's always.
it never have someone else's
.........................
now,

no one can startle me ,

no one can install any doubtness in me;

or even,stir me;

bout my decision,

bout where i am now,

bout how i wasted my flying colours result in spm.

so u people

dont ever try to think about that,

all u need to do is ,just back off!

because,

no one.

yes,no one!

thanx ALLAH,
now u know,
:)
max.

RaiSe tHe Bar~

today...

ada study circle.
alhamdulillah,,,wayy better than last week coz ada guidance.
aku pon da leh menyampaikn dgn hati..
bukankah jika kte menyampaikn sesuatu dr hati ,akan terasa jugalah hati yang mendengarnya
harap2 bgitulah....:),GOD'S WILL.
still,the worse part is,2 jam b4 that thing i br nk bc..
bendenye da la banyakk,,i just cant grab all the input,,
nyesal sgguh...
wuwuw,,so xdpt nk present sebaeknye sgt...
i juz noe i can do better,,
papepon,,,nex week i wont repeat the same thing again insyaallah.
hee~


yesterday...

kelas kimia ptg dicancelkan.
TIDAAKKK!!!!!
eceh,,bunyi cm pljr cmrlg en??
haha,,pekse da lepas,,pe bnde nk smgt g klas sgt,..
the point is,,xdpt ceq nk jmpe Faf(bkn nme sbnr)
penat do tggu dr smlm hgge arini,,kul4 lak tuh...
agaggagaa...
malam tu lak...
dalam kelesuan,,(poyo je sdeyh)
seseorg mghntar msg..
'aku kt uia pj nie'-shamel.
aku pnye smgt ingtkn KO MOHD SHAHMIL BAHARI!
pas aku turun tgok2 upe2nye shamel dak mtd..
apadaaa.
pesal suare dye td aku xleh cm???
toink2~~~
sah2 da lame tak korek tlinge..
dush3~
xpela,,bes gak ade org dtg lwat..jeng3..
heehee..
tp dye kbtulan je teringt aku,dye folow mmber dye je snanye,,
pastu tringt aku,,,
waaa,,tmekaseh la sbb teringt! (bnyik despret)..
ekekeke,,,


2days ago...

kawan aku nie,,
fo0d poisoning...
sbbnye mkn ayam kfc smlm ..
lalala,,,
aku kt umah asl okey je eh??
hemm...
oh..haah,,kt umah ade oven,,
kt sni ade bekas kedap udara jew,,,
ha..logik2,,ekeke
hemm..dye neyh bkn dak asrama.
so aku yg yg da bse neyh mstilah jg kebajikn dye sprti seorg exco kesihtan.
hoho..
dugaan tul jg org saket.
ari first-aku beli bkn nk mkn...
hu,,sabar2,,,org saket mmg byk songeh.
mlm tu-da la prot kosong,nk blaja bio lak..
aiyo0o0..ko ingt leh msuk ke??
aku da nsehat mcm2,even smpai kol mak aku nk tnye nk bg mkn pe.
roti sape pon aku da kebas taruk dpn mate bg trbukak sket slere.
wowooww,,
pnt tol la blaja bio,,kalori dan tenaga yg diperlukan tuk lakukn xtvt pon xtaw ke?
cehh,,pehal aku hangen??
aku pon taw taw la...
aku mmg pantang sket org yg saket pastu cm xgeti bhse.
pehh,,garang mak aih,...
haha,,patotla aku xjd xco ksehatan...lalalalala
salut nana!:p
though....
aku tawu marah tu adlah antare pintu2 syaitan..
sbb dr situ la dye mudah nk msuk dalam hati kte
betapa halusnya cara mereke....
kte pon susah nak sedar,,,
hua3
TUHAN,,,BERILAH AKU KEKUATAN.....!
ya,aku kena kawal!


rabu....

hari yg ditunggu2 sebab..
MAIN BASKET!!!!
yehh!!!!!
haha
dr mggu lepas aku puase men bsket sbb nk blaja pnye pasl!
ha,...lepas gian!!!!
excited gle aku okeyh!
smpai2 court,,,
ttbe,,,wuuwu..
kakak tu kate ade coach mlm tuh..
ceq ingt org tue mne dyorg amek,,
skali dak 2nd year je..laki la...
aku trus xsmgt wehhh..
sgguh terkekang perbuatan ku!!!
ohh!!!
ilang mo0d babeng!
wuwuwuwuuwuwuwuwuwuw
what a grief sbb da lame to tggu saat neyh...
mereka ni lak wt spoil..
sbr je la,,,,
da la coach tu....c***l.
ko pehal weh kiut sgt!?
distract gle tw x?????!!!!
ahahahhaa...
papela ko.


selase...

exam mid chem.
kul 8 malam.
aku xmkn pape tros g pekse.
oh,,bencana!!
perot kosong cmne nk pker weh??
hhaaha...
haha.
adela sgkot 4 soklan objectif,2 subjctif...
i hope it wont make a big difference to my marks,,(of cos it will,,ai'nt it?)


k,,tu jela,,,
harap adela amek sdikit pgjaran..
k daaa~
salam

to0 much to0 tell,
still searching,

max

anta ba'id

i don't know why i post this
2 things i should have done this a long time ago but finally accomplished,
today,
this year;
go to tash's and qam's house
really appreciate nisa and jenab
becoz without them
it wont be never happened
(weyh2 terharu tak??)
ahahaha
or,maybe can happen,,
tp
lmbat sket kott..
ada lagi tmpat dan umah member2 yg tak terjejak lagi kaki
however
for now,
it's enough
da macam satu rahmat lak..
ekeke
ceh,,hyperbola..
kawan ak pnh kate:
"maslin,terpelihare nye ko ney"
sape yg knl aku dr fom1 msti fhm nape dak nie ckp cmni...
malas lak nak usehe terangkan mnde
haha
okies,,,
tu jer.
k
buby:)


just so u know,
high,
max.

subang lama,subang baru,subang jaya,,owhh,,subang subang di kedai.

arini g umah bro qam..(sbb aku junior pastu kne respek pe tah,,ahaha tetbe!)
sebab ade knduri doa selamat..
bukan tunang eh!
ahahaha.. nk golek2 aku kt tnh ktwe spe percye kate2 manusia yg ckp tu..
weyh,,,bapak la gatal aku nk tunang tu mse umor 18 thun neyh!
pekse kimia pon xlps ag ari selase neyh...hohoho..
bell,,kite brjye perdayekn montel:P
wakaka..
aku g ng shakira,,jenab la pemnduku,,sprti bse..
haha
lbeh kurg sepuloh ar bg gerak.
then g apartmen jenab dlu..
huhuhu..
aku kmskn brg dye!
haa!!
da lame tak wat...
i've been doing dat since high scho0l 4 her..
heeheee..
kantoi nab...
haha..
aku pn tara kesah,...
ececcee...ala,,bnde kcik tade hal:)
k pastu kul 12 cmtu gerak umah bro qam,
sesat gak ah byk lorong,,
gle sume strok ade huruf A to Z..
cth: 2/4a,2/4b,........2/4z
ahaha..aku tatw la aku ney batak ke hape,,namun aku ttp mushkil~toink2,,haha
wakakaka...
da jmpe..ttbe khemah kt lua kosong ag
kol dye kate tgh tggu org yg nk bc doa tuh..
o0o0o0hhhhhh!
ehehhe....ney yg malas,,ngee~
ktorg g mkn kt kdai mkn pe tah sbb jenab lapar.
ala mkn sndwich je pon kongsi2..
ekekekekke...
emm..
kul 1 lebeh cmtu..
br g..
da ad org kt khemah..chanteekk!!!!
wakakak.
serbu la ke sne...
eceh,,snanye segan!
sebbek mama dye gle peramah..peehhhhh
papa dye lak,,sgguh aktif ng kmere nye..
hee...i love cmera:)))))
mkn2,,sembang2 tgor2 snior kt stu..
hehe...
kul 2.30 cmtu br gerak blek,,
tapi,,
bell anta smpai tren je sbb itulah perjanjian awal mse nk dpatkn dye tuk g kenduri nie,.
ccehh,usehe keras tahi kucen.
wakkaka

p/s: lupe lak.name dye afiq qamari.nk fly g US.tu yg wt doa slmt neh.course chem eng:)


k ar.
aku snanye tgh skip usrah,,
agagaga..
bodo nye kalo kntoi..
okiess,,
nah gmbr!

semangt2!
wee~
max

just a scribble

supposedly,
i am on the desk and doing essay that need to be submitted tomorrow,
instead,
i'm on this damn internet,
owh 4 gOD SAKE
i can hardly resist myself laa.
*syaitanirrajim...*
hoho
neyh sume pasal mo0t yg tgglkn laptop tak bertuan
aku sbg pemangse msti la cekap
ahh
merepek pulaa,
huhu,
latest news:
i get the offer to be faci,
not an offer actually,
MESTU JADI!
o0hhh,
ya ALLAH BERILA KU KEKUATAN TUK MENJALANKAN AMANAH INI
AMIIN.
what is faci?
u know what is usrah means?
usrah is a group of people that discussing religious stuff to upgrade the knowledge
n i'm the handler
or supposed i say,naqibah?
k,
think gotta go now,
don't really think wanna put myself into the hot water if u know what i mean.

blessed,
worry,
max

waht ur contribution?

before i start,i just want to tell u people that how sad i am to let u guys noe dat it is so hard to get internet at my place. thus,i cant update my blog as frequent as i want.huhu.fyi,there were few events dat had passed by,n being me,i cant gather back all the memories and smack it all out in just one nyt.huh.however,i will try my best n see wht can i do,*sigh*.

okeyh,let's start with the first one,(i'll highlight the event so u can choose to read which)

1. mission to sepintar in jamaah.

okeyh,,i supposedly not following this trip bcos i have a programme namely GPDP to attend to.important? waAay beyond that! my attendance cn affect my cgpa!! how cn u beat taht?,,,but as what nik had said" bkn sng do nk g rermai"..emm..plus intec's+um's+uitm's...wel...emm

..rse cm leh dpertimbagkn ko0wtt (xttp pndirian tol!)ala,,agpon bnde tuh kol 2.30 stat,,sempat

ko0wtt...hoho...okes set!...we from uia are all 10 i guess,plus da boys.hurm, wt a number.

dis is wt happen dat morning:

7.30-aishah called:" maslin,bangun la,ktorg kt lobi neyh"....i was like....." wth.pehal cepat sgt?!" n tdo blek (typical me)

8.30-aishah,again:"maslin,,ktorg da kt luar pakgad ni,cpt r mndi! ko lmbt ktorg tggl je" ..i dunno y...but i was like..."eleh...ugut aku je taw"...(sigh)

the result is: aku lambat.kene g klsntral sensorg.wuwu.jahat.tol2 dyorg tgglkn aku.bongek kt diri sndiri.kn da kene.haha.eh!..wait2..cm pnh dgr kes neyh.----kes ape?-.......kes lambaattt...syhh!,ahaha,

melalut jap~

#kes 1 : kelas stat kul 9 pagi. tah pesal pagi2 tu,atas katil,aku bangun,kul 8.30.in my head yg kelas stat kul 8. melompat aku cm superman lari mndi jalan mcm hmpir nk terbang ke kelas da la smawp3 hapak jauh sekali tibe........o0ohh! nape

tde org??!! kol mmbe---laa...9 ke??cceettt..da

berurat2 otak aku pker alasan nk ksi madam,hu,,tu laa,...neyh pasan lambat.

#kes 2 : kelas bi hbes kul 10.pastu kelas arab,kul 11. aku pon leh lepak2 agi,jaln2 kt stad,tgok2 bo0th club. 10 minit ag kul 11 aku pn g la lyoo1. aik,heran! pesal pnoh da? lom kul seblas,skali aku tgok ade madam! ha? stat kul 10 ke? asl aku leh silap?? aku pn redah je la sbb xkn nk lari lak,ahh,...taram je la. "min aina anti ya maslin??".... gulp!.."ana....ana tersilap jadual!".hoho.. o0o0o0o0o0,,,aku ingt aku dtg 10 mnit b4 seblas dtg awl la tuh,,pdhal,,plg lmbt dr sume org..masyaAllah! cne aku leh silap neyh,,huhu.sebbek madam baekk,huhu,,syukran ustazah:)..

neyh..pasan cepat.

# ney antarenye la..snanye byk je kes..huhu,yg ats ney br2 je jd,,truk tul aku,hihi,,sori madam

AGAIN &AGAIN&AGAIN&AGAIN

by 2pm

k sambung.

g skola td eh..emm....malas lak nk cte..kwn2 aku sume da cter,haha,knklusi,,bes la ko0wt..dpt mjlh+jmpe rmai+jmpe ckgu+jmpe junior...wee~

.right side of tren.

.left side of tren.

.wakil uia gals.

.tgok tu..mreke smgt.

2. global-player development programme(gpdp)

.satu group 16.

.my group.

.our island-wonder island.

.my kg-mate.

I just finish my global-player development program(gpdp). Not bad though. My first perception: it was gonna be totally b0o0ooring +lame~- just like my previous programme at school---motivation prog,prs prog,blablabla.. but then again, my assumption had its turn on me. I had so0o much fun,,especially when it comes to LDK part. Apart of the ceramah n all that kind of things,I had so much wonderful time n enjoyed every single minutes of it. For LDK section,we were divided and required to gather in respective classes. So that it was easy to handle the big number of us.

And Here how it s goes…

LDK 1

-KIPAS-

bkn papepon,ktorg kne bahagi kpd 2 kumpulan.then,we’ll diberi sekeping kertas. Tulis nama on it,pastu fold it n pas kt org sebelah kanan till the oscillation complete, org yg belah kanan tu,kne la tulis first impression dyorg kt kertas yg ade name tu.

Cth: LALOLA…(fold)

Cun………..(fold)+pass

Best………..(fold)+pass

Then,da hbes tu,, aku pon dapat la hsilnye,muahahaha.

MASLIN

Happy go lucky

Co0l giler!

Baek

Low profile.(dak slyg ney)

Havoc

Friendly + talkative

Muke awk cm kwn sy…(huh?)

Menyerlah(ehem2)

Xpkai stoking..(pdhal aku ckp ko ALIM..ouh?..ko usha kaki aku?!)

Ok jer

Slumber jer

Aktiv

Ttg beg-best!

Stylo

Hingaq.(rumet aku neyh,,kedah mari!!)

Haha..bes la kot sbb aku nye positif ,heehee.yg penting ,I gotta be my self. Yes, juz me n no one elseJ

LDK2

-DEBAT-

kami dipecah kpd 4kumpulan. Aku bertuah sbb dpt ng dak kg aku!!!haha,namenye fakhrul,dak aed. Aku da agk da yg debat neyh mst ngarut2nye. Ter nyata benar.

Grup aku dpt tajuk BILIK TIDUR.so,we all kne la pertahankn kepentingan wilayah ktorg berbanding ng wilyh2 laen yaitu dapur,ruang tamu,n tandas.ahahahaha.

Memang havoc gler. Bilik tdur mmg stu kelebehan da.lebeh2 agi grupies nye adalaa kami!.

Ehehehe.

-Grup leader,NAQIB,sejibik cm latip.wahaha,pdhal dak STAR :p

-si FAKHRUL niey,muke je nerd,tp ble bukak mulot,lgsung xde tnde2 getar,peh.,..respek! go selayang ku syg!!

-AMZAR,,no komen.kurg usehe sket..

-WANZU..la,,seseri ke? Hua3.bersepah2 la skola niey,ktne ne jmpe je.tp,diam2 ubi berisi.

-HANi…muke arab cceehh. Tu pon tukang support terhebaatt,,ahaha.

-ATIEY…kurg ckp sket,p idea ttp manto00op..

-AKU…pendebat+pembidas+penyampuk+penggelak..sume aku..wakkakaka

long story short..ktorg menang selepas saingan sengit dgn ruang tamu and dapur.hua3.dan xlupe juga pertahanankuat kami drpd bomm suara sumbangan grup TANDAS.sesape yg xde daya tahan,,patot telinge mreka da berdarah da.ahaha.menyempreng!!

papehal..dyorg mmg cmbest,,n spo0rting!!..

terbaeekkk woo0okk!!!.

Hahaha….

LDK 3

-DREAM ISLAND-

selepas penat bertarung suara td,,kami kmbali lg utk membine sebuah pulau yg didirikn utk org asli ng modal 5 juta.eleh.,.,modul nie da bse r kt skola,cume bezenye is org yg ade tuk kerjesame.sekali lagi,FAKHRUL jd arkitek ktorg.haha,ptotnye ktorg fokus kt part kemudahan,tp ktorg g wat tesco la,ikea,airport,chalet,stadium..etcetera etcetera.da la xpntg.,pastu cm ckup je 5 juta..uwa3…mmg kabot gle r.pulau bentuk burung, time bentang, kantoi xde pertahann atawpon kselamatan,ye r xde balai polis. Pastu ketue kate,,”pulau ktorg kt bntuk burung en?”..er,,aha,,yep,,so??..”kalo de pape ancaman ,pulau nie trbg r tmpt len”…wakakkak! Pecah perot aku !..spontan gle.babeng tul idea,haha.

Eh,lupe lak, pulau ktorg is WONDER ISLAND~,,uuuu,haha,,bongok2 je.

Papehal pon memg enjoy r,hua3..drpd tanggapan aku mengatekn GPDP nie gaban bosan,,tp at least ade gak la bnde baek,,hee~..

Bkn sng do aku nk enjoy teamgrup ney,dlu kt skola,yg menyerlah mst org yg sme je.

So cm bosan la..same ppl,same way..hoho. yg ney da la xknl sesape,,nothing to expect,juz do wit wt u hav n give da best!..

Yeh..welcome to the adultho0dJ

Thanx 4 da memories,then!

oh,remeh?

suke ati la nk ckp pe!

blog aku.

lalalalala,

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