Kaseh sayang Tuhan pada semue

Kadang kala hati terusik hati ini pabila 'disapa'  dengan kepayahan hidup yang bagaikan duri menghiris hati dari yang Esa. Lantas tanpa kesedaran aku mencaci menagapa begitu percaturanNya, kemudiaan di sebalek keperitan itu aku pelajari jalan mengatasinya , matang fikiranku kerana UjianNya, luas pemandanganku walaupun sakit...Sabar , itulah yang paling bermakna , nikmatnye baru ku terase. Di saat itu , barulah ku ketahui , di sebalek kesusahan ada kemudahan , di setiap penderitaan terselit kaseh sayangNya . HebatnyeAllah Rabbul Jalil. 

sedang kite tidak mengetahui.

-kakak usrah -

THIS.IS.SUPER.MEGA.SHOCKING @.@

I GOT THE JPA ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! !

TUHAN ,AKU BERSYUKUR KEPADA MU ! :’)

Ney, meh cek nak habaq cikit neyh.

Kau tahu , selepas aku rase betapa peritnye hilang sesuatu yang berharga. Sesuatu yang bukan semue org dapat dan bukan  sng dapat . it taught me many things tho. In a way, it did changed me hey.  If u think i am a cheerful person right now , try to know me the previous 2 years. What i am right now , is half of that time. I becoming more serious . no such thing as loitering without direction.no more moments of enjoy-this-life-like-this-is-the –end-of –the-world.

I wasnt the same person i was before. 

Yeah, things changed. And people changed too. I wouldnt say this is bad.instead, i got lotsa benefits .

My sense of alertness increases. I know who is my real frens. Who can be trusted and who is not. I could differeate Who is willing to jump together into mud and helping to clean each other with who is just looking from far with a cynical smirks.

I learn how to do everything wholeheartedly . how great the feelings when u achieved something out of enthusiastment. I learn how to deal with the pain of heartbroken and inner anger that stored within. The unsatisfied-self who always hunger for perfection. 

Yeah,its only 3 months now . but i got to feel all of them . the hardest part of life for me.

The courage to deal with people’s disappointment especially when they are the your loved ones - The parents

 To acknowledge u have let them down and cant meet the expectations is ever torturing . i now know how does it feel to be someone who always worrying about financial issue. cause i wasnt one before. But now ,i am.

In short.i think i am on my way to become a mature person.

Sungguh hebat pengaturan Mu Tuhannn. Uijan Mu yg sedikit ney , mampu memberikan pelbagai manfaat kepada ku. Aku memang berpegang sangat kepada janjiMU dlm Surah Albaqarah.

‘La yukallifullahu nafsan illa wusa’ha’- Allah tidak akan menurunkan beban sesuai dengan kemampuan hambaNya. :’) Thank you Allah. You just  make me want to become a better muslimah . insyaAllah.

Sekarang aku dah kutip apa yang Allah nak aku kutip. Dan kini keadaan  kembali menjadi  normal . dengan pembaikian dan peningkatan diri. Aku akan pastikan peluang kedua yang Tuhan bagi kat aku tidak sia2. Seorang Mukmin tidak akan masuk ke lubang yang sama dua kali. Kuatkan aku Tuhan . semoge aku tidak screwed up again .

Frankly , i dont know how to react with this news. I already lost my hope in it and didnt expect anything, cause i know , expectation hurts.  million thousand times hurts when it didnt fulfilled. So , i just dont.

Terimekaseh kepada semue yg telah bersame2  spnjg aku mengharungi detik3 mencengkam jiwerage ini. u really dont know how deep and big this thing could effect me. But because of your support , i manage to go thru all of this till now . thanx for holding my back , u really dont know how much i appreciate you . 

 Special thanx to una sbb ajak aku pi perjumpaan jpa tuu :*

Kudos for , nik nasreen aisya. Mahfuzah yusof, una , wan nurul iman, wan safiga. And all of my frens.

Only few knows what i was dealing with , i am sorry to not be able to tell you , other dear friends . Please dont be offended. Its just too hurt to be told. It would be like digging my heart out with blunt blade. U all are my frens no matter how much you know  . Thanx for always be there  :’).

and far than what i know , this reward is also a test to me . whether i would turn back to my usual self or be the one who had faced ups and downs and be better :') . I will try to be my best !

Now, lets get busy ! ^^.